Month: March 2026

I’ve had enough
Let’s go to war
Sin is everywhere
The world must be cleansed–
Loud people and noisy things
Must be silenced
One too many
Talkative narcissists
Have held hostage
One too many
Modest altruists
Everything ever made
Makes a lot of noise
As if our ears are
Too deaf to hear
Whatever thing we’re using
Injustice I say!
If we don’t do anything
The injustices will continue–
Like chocolate and peanut butter
They do not taste great together
And putting them together is
Pure taste bud blasphemy!
And don’t get me
Started on sporting events
Where are we?
Ancient Rome?
Billions spent to see
Adults play childhood games–
Wait what?
You like all those things?
Well that changes everything–
If you are not with me
You can only be against me
You are now my enemy too

Every time I’m in the
Same room as you
I’m trapped
Should I say something
Beyond small talk?
Or if I do will it drive you to
End the convo with a
“That’s interesting” or
“I didn’t know that”
Then abrupt silence?
Will it prove all along
That I shouldn’t be here?
That I am someone to fear?
If I don’t say anything
Beyond the default greeting
Will you worry?
Make it seem I hate you
Hate everyone?
Will it prove all along
That I shouldn’t be here?
That I am someone to fear?

Every time I’m in the
Same room as you
I’m trapped
Between speaking
What I’m thinking
Thinking but not
Speaking
(Dis)proving all
Of the above
(Dis)proving
Nothing at all

You’re a stranger to me
But your words drape me
Wool blanket for a cold night
Waterproof coat for a rainy day
Somehow you knew
That I would be wanting
Comfort when everyone else
Offered folk remedies and
Second guessings
If they gave me
Any attention at all
Navigating the world
Traversing the wilderness
Enough thorns poisons
To weary the spirit
Into submission
Your words fit like armor
Ready for doomsday
Your words satisfy
Antidotes for a soul
Wandering the earth
One too many days
I’ll never meet you
But all your words
Are remembered and
Carried with me
Jewels in my heart
Sturdiness in my step
Kingdom in my mind

Every time I’m in the
Same room as you
I’m trapped
And all I can do is
Wish I was invisible

Every time I’m in the
Same room as you
You start singing
And all I can do is
Wish I was deaf

I
Cold shoulder to everyone
Just so you won’t think
I’m picking on you
But if you knew why
I let ice flow through my veins
You’d think I was insane
I don’t tagalong with social cues
Can’t (fake) laugh (anymore)
Cute tantrums and giggle outbursts
Snicker worthy curse word sarcasm
Pass through me like dark matter
I can look you straight in the eye and
Say everything’s okay
Even though we’re all in disarray
I’m the king of wishful thinking
Everything is so wrong
Tired of the universe’s dance singsong
As I dream of a world without me
But I wake each morn doubts like thorns
Raking across my soul
Still no smiles are necessary
To mimic humanity
(Just need a good cover story)
II
Day after day–
Curiosity downplayed
Whenever I hear laughter
Lock myself away
Avoid falling prey
To the sway
Group dynamics fray(ed)
Week after week–
All try to lure me out
With talk that interests me
Hoping for water during drought
They pray but no rain no rain no rain
Don’t bother to linger thy business done
Skipping out on so-called fun
Offset from everyone
Never will parallel lives meet
Year after year–
Don’t care if you miss me
When I stay away
Acknowledge what you said
And I have nothing else to say
Apathy the response
To dancehall antics of survivors
Who push on dragging me along
Playing their games don’t keep me engaged
Stress relievers goofing off more of the same
Whatever you had thought of me
When we first met
Initially perceived now has been upset
Downvoted no longer recommend
And I have myself to blame
Heart I was born with
I want to return it
Hate its defective uneven butterfly beat
But I can’t get a new one
Metaphysicians won’t entertain my conceit
They say “It works just fine” my protest done
So I disconnect my face from the feelings
Sincere actions muted into cold dealings
III
Compliments don’t rouse me
Saying you appreciate me
Doesn’t catch me on fire
Because I am a liar liar liar
In the beginning I decided
To cut myself off
From everyone else because
I didn’t want to be unfair to you
And now after so much time
That is all I know and ever knew
The world can be a warm place
But I refuse to let it
Joy from a gesture
Levity shared in a moment
Can only entangle confuse
My understanding of the rules
The climate may be changing
But I can’t break from the amber
Fossilized I may be memorialized
Radioactive carbon dating can only
Say when I died
But never the reason
How I committed treason
To keep the true shape of my heart from you

I’ll be dead then
In half-a-century
The world will be
Dead to me
Even if it survives
I won’t care anymore
My lifespan concluded
Enough time for my body
To have composted
Maggot feed without end

Every time I’m in the
Same room as you
I’m trapped
And all you can do is
Say you like my shirt

The time that we
Ran around the graveyard
During the witching hour
Only to find demon zombies
And I left my boomstick
In my other
Oldsmobile Delta 88 Royale
The time that we
Planned to crash your
Cousin’s wedding
But got wrong directions
And instead bum rushed the
Occult convention downtown
The time that we
Were searching for
UFOs UAPs
I mean
Lights in the sky
But was told it was
Flares Mothman meteor shower
Just a weather balloon
By everyone else
The time that we
Were hunting ghosts
And got very clear
EVPs near the
High voltage power lines
Spirit box voices near the
Drive-in theater
The time that we–
Watched a lot of
Movies and television
And didn’t want it to end

Unwanted unexpected
Like an inappropriate lover
You leave me breathless
Or deathly sick
Thankfully when you’re not here
I feel little bit better
And can focus just enough
To not sweat the small stuff
No rad suit required