Mellow

I don’t trust
This thing
Beating within my chest
I want my feelings
To just leave me alone–

I wonder what it’s like
To have a heart
That doesn’t leap like a desperately hungry lion?
That doesn’t sink like a block of cement thrown in water?
A heart that is steady in flight
Gradually climbing gradually descending
A heart that burns slowly once it has caught a spark
A heart that cracks rather than breaks

A heart that is mellow