Twelve

1. Sadness for failing
2. Frustration at not knowing why
3. Shame for revealing myself
4. Angst at knowing the effort was wasted
5. Anger at thinking I could succeed
6. Awkwardness at not knowing how to move on
7. Despair that I may be stuck for a long time
8. Sorrow that it may be a long time before I become curious again
9. Embarrassment that those who know may see me differently
10. Fear that I will fail for the rest of my life
11. Worry that I had missed other opportunities
12. Deja vu that I’ve been here before