Playground

I know you won’t
Play with me
Even though
I had asked

I know you won’t
Come around
That moment
Has long since passed

I know I’ll spend many days
Pulling myself out
From the muddled feelings
I’m mired in

I know you’ll carry on
With whatever you’re doing
Without so much a word
Because that was then

I know I’ll hear of what you did
But never be told
Because that’s the way
It will always be

I know this is a pattern with me
By a matter of degrees
Even though I want
To live happily

I know myself enough to know
Where I am is not where you want to go
And now by being myself
I must flee