Servant

The only way
I can love you
Is through
Deception
Sprinkled in my chores
Subtle gestures I hope
That make you wonder
Box of candy moments
Uncertainty yet
Playful surprises
A radiant smile when
I serve your meals
Fresh linen touched by
Jasmine musk sandalwood citrus
When I change the bedroom sheets
Bite sized compliments
I’ve planted in and
Pickpocketed from
Our brief conversations–
But when I clean up messes
I stumble a bit and
Remember my place
The particles I wipe away
Every day when I work
My heart
Disintegrating
Piece by piece